Oooh, this story made me mad for you (and at your manager/patriarchy/toxic masculinity/hypercapitalism/hustle culture)! But I'm so glad you shared it. It's such an important message. I'd only add that I hope you can continue to cut yourself slack. The main person at fault here isn't you -- it's your manager, who (likely knowingly) put you in a lose-lose situation.
I can completely relate on everything you have said. And like you, being kind to yourself and giving you the time needed to rest seems like the most difficult thing in the world. I agree with Robin too, your manager knew full well what they were doing. I am on my last week of notice for my job and someone commented that I've never been appreciated fully for what I do. I am leaving for disability reasons, my manager even said my exit form "made for sad reading and she was sorry I was failed by her and the company". Sad. I hope you feel better soon and that the time you are giving yourself does what it needs to ✨️
Oooh, this story made me mad for you (and at your manager/patriarchy/toxic masculinity/hypercapitalism/hustle culture)! But I'm so glad you shared it. It's such an important message. I'd only add that I hope you can continue to cut yourself slack. The main person at fault here isn't you -- it's your manager, who (likely knowingly) put you in a lose-lose situation.
I can completely relate on everything you have said. And like you, being kind to yourself and giving you the time needed to rest seems like the most difficult thing in the world. I agree with Robin too, your manager knew full well what they were doing. I am on my last week of notice for my job and someone commented that I've never been appreciated fully for what I do. I am leaving for disability reasons, my manager even said my exit form "made for sad reading and she was sorry I was failed by her and the company". Sad. I hope you feel better soon and that the time you are giving yourself does what it needs to ✨️